If there are stages of pregnancy like there are stages of recovery, I think I've gone through just about all of them (in no particular order). Disbelief, indifference, joy, self-doubt, excitement, panic, nesting, acceptance, and now... let's get this show on the road!
After the fall semester came to a close and we retreated home to MT for the holidays, I felt panic set in. With a double teaching load and close to 300 students, I had had no time for anything -- research, hobbies, sleep, let alone time to think about the Psite and what I needed to do to feel "prepared" for parenthood. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe there is anything one can do to truly prepare for one of life's most significant events. But anyone who knows me, knows that I am a planner. My ducks like to be in a row. And suddenly I found myself 7 months pregnant with no ducks in sight, let alone lined up neatly.
Where am I now with ~5 weeks until D-Day (delivery day)? I'd like to say "ready", more or less. I tried to inventory all the ducks, and quickly realized that there are far too many to keep track of. So, I'm settling on just a few -- we have diapers, the car seat arrived, I knit a hat for Psite (it will be FEBRUARY in FARGO for God's sake!), I'm packing my hospital bag, and my Mom booked her tickets. The rest, well, it will slowly get taken care of (or not). It's kind of like a game of hide-and-go-seek. I can dimly hear Psite counting in the background, but don't know exactly how fast or slow. But I think I'll be OK when s/he suddenly cries out, "Ready or not, here I come!"
You have a car seat? You have warm clothes to cover her or him with? Diapers, cloth or otherwise? You definitely have the love and support of folks around you and far away. Anything else can wait. We can't wait either.
ReplyDeleteI think you got the Troop Leader ducks in place, well done! The rest will fall into place with the ease and beauty of a perfectly played game of Tetris. Oh, not the best analogy! But congratulations, and all the luck in the world!
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